Hail to the…oh, wait…nevermind.

I reckon the Washington Redskins are going to need a new fight song to go along with their new name, now  This pisses me off.

I’m an 80’s kid, and Joe Theismann (originally pronounced, Thees-man, before changing it to, Thighs-man, just so it would rhyme with, Heisman…as in, the Heisman Trophey…which he didn’t win) was my idol.  I had his jersey and everything.  And, oh my God when Lawrence Taylor broke his leg….  my tiny little 4 year old heart broke into tiny little pieces.  My hero was done, forever.  I still wore his jersey, though.

I clearly remember hearing “Hail To The Redskins” playing during the football games.  Hell, I remember hearing it on the radio.  I sang along like a real badass, too.  I still sing along to it, and sometimes I’ll even do a little solo act when the spirit moves me.

So, what happens now?  I guess with this new name change, I’ll never hear it again.  Glad that’s been ripped away.  *sarcasm*

Part 2

Before I get cranked up on Part 2, let me mention something.   Addiction is NOT bias.  It can sink its venomous fangs into anyone, and its mission is to take you out.  My heart aches for those suffering this disease.  Especially those who are desperate to fight their way out from under it.  Addiction puts up a relentless fight and it fights dirty.

I consider myself one of the lucky one’s who, so far, has survived the fight of prescription pain killer addiction.  I say, “so far” because sobriety doesn’t mean you’re out of the woods, and safe.  Addiction is always ready and waiting to strike again, and it could be right around the corner….you just don’t know which one.


The doctor shopping, pharmacy shopping, and drug seeking is done by addicts.  The sober ones don’t do any of this.  So why is there so much focus on stopping the shopping and seeking, and not addiction prevention?

Why wait until someone is addicted?!

There’s a serious issue going on, and nobody is talking about it.  Pain is being treated instead of what’s causing the pain, way too often.  Doctors everywhere are fine with using pain medication as a long term treatment plan for pain.  ANYONE on pain killers long enough, WILL become addicted.

Here’s my story, for example…

I had classic symptoms of several ruptured discs that were crushing nerves throughout my spine.  I also had MRI’s proving this.  I can’t explain the pain I was dealing with.  I’ll just say, my legs felt like they were being crushed.  I saw doctor after doctor for help correcting the obvious reasons I was in so much pain.  I would hand them my MRI’s and they’d take a look, and I’d hear the same thing from each one of them.  “You’re too young for these types of problems.  What you’re complaining of just doesn’t happen to people your age.”  Then I was handed a prescription.

Sure, the pain pills felt nice.  Not giving much of a damn about anything for a few hours was pretty kick ass. Not only was my pain numbed, but so was my mind.  I could finally sleep a few hours without waking up from leg and back pain, too.  I was able to get things done a bit better as long as I took my pain killers.

This awesome feeling is extremely temporary.  The pain numbing, and euphoria starts to weaken as the body builds up a tolerance.  So, what does that mean?  It means the pain comes back.  And, it comes back because the source of the pain was never addressed.

When my crushed leg sensations came back, I was sent to pain management.  The beast of all pain medications were prescribed as long as I wizzed in a cup for drug testing.  I’d become tolerant of one medication, then put on another. Then another.

I was absolutely miserable and I hated my life so I took the bull by the horns and made my own appointments, this time with local neurosurgeons and orthopedic surgeons.  I didn’t bother going back to doctors for a referral.  I already tried that route, remember?

The surgeons would take a look at my MRI films and they’d acknowledge my obvious reasons for pain.  More refusals to fix the problem, but more than happy to send me back to pain management.

As long as my back issues weren’t fixed, I’d stay in pain.  As long as I was in pain, I’d be back to see my pain specialist.  As long as I was addicted, I’d be back to see my pain specialist.  WHY IS THIS OKAY?!?!?

Masking the pain needs to stop being the focus!  The reason for the pain needs to be the focus and treated.




(Yes, I know there is such a thing as there being nothing to fix on some people.  I’m not an idiot.  A war hero with his legs blown completely off, will suffer pain, both mentally and physically, for the rest of his life.  My heart breaks that their pain is forever.  There’s nothing to fix to stop their pain.  I’m actually brought to tears over this. Their choices are to either endure the revolving door of pain management and addiction, or refuse the pain killers and suffer anyway.  Someone like me with a condition that can be treated, shouldn’t be lumped in with this situation, by any means.)

(I was finally blessed with a surgeon who didn’t refuse to help  me.  He was actually excited to help me.  He wasn’t local.  My spine ended up being much worse than what the MRI’s showed.  I’ve been without pain killers for over a year. The weaning off of the pain killers was brutal, to say the least.  I have limited mobility, and there’s things I just can’t do anymore…but, I have my legs back, and my sobriety back…and really cool titanium scaffolding in my back.  I wonder where I’d be now had I continued to just mask the pain?…)


Part 1. (participate so i can finish Part 2)

I read an article today about prescription pain killer (narcotics) addiction, drug seeking, doctor shopping, pharmacy shopping, and how this is locally becoming a very serious and rapidly growing epidemic.

If you’re not familiar with any of these terms, I’ll give you a brief rundown.  Doctor shopping usually means going to new doctors to score a prescription for pain killers while already having another doctor, somewhere else, also prescribing you pain killers.

Doctor shopping can also mean, you go through several doctors until you find one that prescribes narcotics, all willy-nilly for the slightest of aches and pains.  You’ve hit the mother load if you end up finding several willy-nilly types.

If your doctor shopping is successful, you now have to pharmacy shop.

Using more than one  pharmacy to fill the several different prescriptions you scored,  keeps you from getting busted.  I mean damn…If you hand the pharmacist 3 prescriptions from 3 different doctors, and they’re all for pain killers…yeah, you just wasted your day.

Drug seeking typically means you’ve either run out of pain killers, or you’re damn close to running out, and you have to get something RIGHT NOW before you go into withdrawals. You’ll do what you’ve gotta do to get them.  Emergency rooms are known to be full of drug seekers with bullshit complaints of pain and/or injuries, hoping to get a dose, usually an injection, of pain killer.  It’s a drug seeker’s lucky day if they get a dose while at the ER, then sent home with a prescription to fill, too!

Still with me?

As I was saying, I was reading the article about all of this today.  Then, I decided to browse through the comments people submitted regarding this issue.  It annoyed the shit out of me.

The majority of the comments were about how there needs to be a mandatory networking system of all doctors, and all pharmacies.  This required networking is said to keep people from having more than he legally should.

Are you shittin’ me?!?  All this does is keep pharmacies from being involved!

There were also a few comments saying “we” need to help these addicts!  And, there needs to be more rehab centers.  Getting these addicted people some help, will stop the doctor shopping, and yadda yadda.  Okay, maybe so…

But, how did all of these addicts get their START?  Seriously, I want to know.  How the hell did this happen???

If you’re a recovering pain pill addict, or currently battling the disease of addiction, I want to hear about the very beginnings.

If you’ve never experienced pain pill addiction…. well, I’d like to hear your theories as to how you THINK pain pill addiction happens.

Part 2 of this blog is coming up….  it’s possible that I just might blow your mind.







So much pressure!

Welp.  Here it is.  I’m handed over the keys to this blog estate, and now I can’t come up with a damn thing to say.

There’s a lot of pressure here!  I can’t bomb my very first blog entry.  Maybe it’s just like a few games of bowling, or making pancakes…  (the first one usually sucks)

So… let me go ahead and get this one out of the way, then we’ll get this goat rodeo started right.